How come?

How come I had all these ideas for writing before I started a blog and now writer's block? I really can't think of anything to say that I think is good enough to write and put out there in the universe. While I know I'm more that likely talking to myself nothing I think of is good enough.

This is why I come up with ideas for novels and stories but then never write the down and actually follow it through. Like my last post seemed like a really good start but then I have no idea where it's going. That one will just keep on peculating in the back of my mind until I decide where it goes. I may abandon that story all together and start another. Instead of my creative writing blog this will be my starts and stops blog of half thought out ideas.

At least the ideas may stop whirling around in my head if they are written down somewhere and not sitting having tea in my head.

Now that still leaves us here....blocked about what to write down next. Where does this go...further thought where do I go, where am I going? Treading water keeps you surviving but doesn't solve the problem. We all have problems. We all tread water. I truly admire people who rarely tread water and just start swimming towards shore. I think my metaphor is going on way too long.

But don't we all know someone or have heard of someone that just rolls up their sleeves and gets to work instead of fretting and wringing their hands woe is me attitude. I want more of a solution oriented attitude. I have it to an extent but I'm not very good about coming up with unique out of the box ideas. I hate it the most when we are in the boardroom and having our weekly meeting at work and the boos turns and says any ideas to get the budget back on track and I just sit there hoping no one makes eye contact with me. It's not only that I have no ideas but I go so blank I can't even think of my name or what's even on my agenda for the day. I believe that the squeaky hamster wheel sound in my mind is completely audible to the whole room.

I don't think it's anxiety, I think it's more I'm just not original enough to come up with those kinds of ideas. I think what I really want to know is what is my natural ability. Those talents we were all told we had in elementary school as the reason why we needed to keep trying things. The hidden ones. I think all of my talents may be hidden,at least the profitable ones.